Of course not... Sakura, Azura, Felicia... they stood by me when no one else did... of course, I haven't forgotten...
[ He sounds pained. ]
But what good am I... if none of what I've done is remembered by someone I trusted with my life? When someone else... can lay claim to everything I had with them? What good am I if that's possible?
[ It's the alcohol making this worse, but he just doesn't understand why it's just him. Everyone else was the same, and remembered as such, and he was prepared for things being different, of different times, and different places...
Why is only his existence the one that's different? ]
... Subaki. What if someone you cared for, respected and was close to... what if they didn't know you as you are? But had exactly the same relationship with you, with someone else? What would you feel?
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Date: 2016-09-20 02:10 am (UTC)[ He sounds pained. ]
But what good am I... if none of what I've done is remembered by someone I trusted with my life? When someone else... can lay claim to everything I had with them? What good am I if that's possible?
[ It's the alcohol making this worse, but he just doesn't understand why it's just him. Everyone else was the same, and remembered as such, and he was prepared for things being different, of different times, and different places...
Why is only his existence the one that's different? ]
... Subaki. What if someone you cared for, respected and was close to... what if they didn't know you as you are? But had exactly the same relationship with you, with someone else? What would you feel?